Logic vs. Crazy

I’m usually a very logical person.  Yeah, I get emotional but even then I have logical permission to feel that way.  For example, when a moment of worship takes my breath away and I find tears streaming down my face, I find logic there, too.  I know my God is amazing and awesome (in the true sense of the word) so it’s natural for me to get caught up in Him.  Very logical.

However, lately, logic seems to depart at some odd times.  Unfortunately, those times have been increasing in frequency. I’ve been snappish and short-tempered.  God bless my husband because he has been the recipient of most of this.  He’s so awesome hat he mostly just goes with it.  What’s so frustrating is that I have a somewhat logical reason for my illogical behavior. That reason does not make it any less illogical.

The reason is simple: Darin and Alexis are leaving. No, they aren’t dying and there is Skype and Google+.  But I know that as bad as I am about keeping in touch with people (sorry, Liza), Darin is worse. And we’ll have an international time difference to contend with.  Hong Kong is on the other side of the world! Literally!

Before I continue, I feel like I need to say that I am so excited for them and their adventure.  I admit I am a bit jealous.  I would never dream of asking them not to go because this is an incredible opportunity for them and who am I to get in the way of God working in someone’s life.  So with that being said, I continue.

Darin hates it when people get emotional (he’s gonna hate this blog) so I’ve done my very best to disassociate my emotions when I’m around him. I know he’s upset about leaving me because he’s been picking on me quite more than usual.

I’m losing my two best friends.  Darin gets me like no one else does.  At the same time he knows exactly what will hurt me. Unless he’s in a bad mood, we always have fun together.  Usually laughing at someone else’s expense. I can be stupid around him but then have a theological discussion or an intellectual conversation about the human psyche. He was there when my heart was torn out by a church that I loved and encouraged me to not give up on ministry. He told Curtis’ friends to butt out otherwise they would scare Curtis off. He gets very angry when someone (other than him) makes me cry. He’s the one I sing best with. And I’ve had some phenomenal singing partners.

Alexis has this innate sense of what I’m feeling at any given moment. She sees when Darin might go too far with his teasing. She is also the best crafting partner. We figure out how to do things together and whenever I make something, she gets so excited about it, and vice versa.  She’s a much better artist than I could ever hope to be.  She “gave” me one of her paintings and I’m afraid I’ll start crying every time I see it.  It’s gonna look fantastic in my office with the green wall behind it.  Just sayin. Who else is gonna dance with a shower curtain and sing “I Know You?”

These are two of the people I love most in the world. I can live without my two best friends. I just don’t want to.