I’m usually
a very logical person. Yeah, I get emotional but even then I have logical
permission to feel that way. For example, when a moment of worship takes
my breath away and I find tears streaming down my face, I find logic there,
too. I know my God is amazing and awesome (in the true sense of the word)
so it’s natural for me to get caught up in Him. Very logical.
However,
lately, logic seems to depart at some odd times. Unfortunately, those
times have been increasing in frequency. I’ve been snappish and
short-tempered. God bless my husband because he has been the recipient of
most of this. He’s so awesome hat he mostly just goes with it.
What’s so frustrating is that I have a somewhat logical reason for my illogical
behavior. That reason does not make it any less illogical.
The reason
is simple: Darin and Alexis are leaving. No, they aren’t dying and there is
Skype and Google+. But I know that as bad as I am about keeping in touch
with people (sorry, Liza), Darin is worse. And we’ll have an international time
difference to contend with. Hong Kong is on the other side of the world!
Literally!
Before I
continue, I feel like I need to say that I am so excited for them and their
adventure. I admit I am a bit jealous. I would never dream of
asking them not to go because this is an incredible opportunity for them and
who am I to get in the way of God working in someone’s life. So with that
being said, I continue.
Darin hates
it when people get emotional (he’s gonna hate this blog) so I’ve done my very
best to disassociate my emotions when I’m around him. I know he’s upset about
leaving me because he’s been picking on me quite more than usual.
I’m losing
my two best friends. Darin gets me like no one else does. At the
same time he knows exactly what will hurt me. Unless he’s in a bad mood, we
always have fun together. Usually laughing at someone else’s expense. I
can be stupid around him but then have a theological discussion or an
intellectual conversation about the human psyche. He was there when my heart
was torn out by a church that I loved and encouraged me to not give up on
ministry. He told Curtis’ friends to butt out otherwise they would scare Curtis
off. He gets very angry when someone (other than him) makes me cry. He’s the
one I sing best with. And I’ve had some phenomenal singing partners.
Alexis has
this innate sense of what I’m feeling at any given moment. She sees when Darin
might go too far with his teasing. She is also the best crafting partner. We
figure out how to do things together and whenever I make something, she gets so
excited about it, and vice versa. She’s a much better artist than I could
ever hope to be. She “gave” me one of her paintings and I’m afraid I’ll
start crying every time I see it. It’s gonna look fantastic in my office
with the green wall behind it. Just sayin. Who else is gonna dance with a
shower curtain and sing “I Know You?”
These are
two of the people I love most in the world. I can live without my two best
friends. I just don’t want to.
